The streets are silent. Not even the occasional bus speeding past the apartment interrupts the vacuum of sound. The only cars on the street have been parked long before in anticipation. It feels like Sunday afternoon at the end of a holiday weekend, except it's Wednesday evening. For almost 3 solid hours, the silence would persist, only once was a half-hearted shout for goal heard which was subsequently quenched by an offsides whistle. The entire nation's attention was held captive, mostly by choice, by Argentina taking on the Netherlands in the World Cup semi-final in the neighboring country of Brazil (the term "neighbor" is not to be mistaken for friend, however, which, if ever in doubt, was clearly evidenced by the 7 shouts for goal which echoed throughout Buenos Aires during Brazil's own semi-final match, or rather fiasco, against European-powerhouse Germany).
For 3 hours, international conflicts, financial instability (25% inflation and falling national reserves), unreasonably high crime rates, family issues, health problems (ACL tears and upcoming surgeries...), opposing ideologies, any non-fútbol related concerns were put on hold, which is not to say there were no arguments or shouts of frustration or joy during the game, as in any major sporting event, it was quite to the contrary...
"Sabella! What the heck are you doing? You're seriously making a double substitution right now? And you're taking off the two guys who were just involved in our only goal scoring opportunity in the last 20 minutes? He actually wants us to lose. Oh, and now you're putting on a guy who's in the twilight years of his career? Great, just great..."
"Calm down, the guy knows what he's doing. He's the national team coach for a reason, isn't he?"
"Of course he's there for a reason. The same reason anybody gets to be anywhere in AFA. He's friends with the rest of the football mafia-types."
"Just shut up and enjoy the game! We can still win this! Even though the Dutch are looking a bit more dangerous than us right now..."
"Penalties? Are you kidding me? My heart can't handle this anymore!" (Which was true for the 2 Argentine men who died from cardiac arrest while watching the match)
Some prayed quietly to themselves, some crossed themselves incessantly, others turned the other direction or covered their eyes while peeking through their fingers, but everybody went silent as the first Dutch player stepped forward to take the first kick. All of a sudden even the Argentine goalkeeper's (Sergio "Chiquito" Romero) harshest critics went silent and began to cheer him on in their hearts then out loud and uncontrollably after he made the brilliant save on the Dutch center-back's poorly taken penalty attempt. Screams and shouts of joy echoed against the walls of the apartment buildings lining the streets of Buenos Aires, but as Argentina's star, hope, "Messi"as, walked from half-field to the penalty spot, silence once again reigned supreme and each person resumed what they had been doing before the first kick. Despite the Dutch Ken-doll goalkeeper's attempts to intimidate little Lio, he took his penalty decisively, sending the young blond diving in the wrong direction. The celebrations resumed where they had left off after Romero's save until the next Dutch player prepared to take his shot, and so forth until Argentina's Maxi Rodriguez scored Argentina's fourth and decisive penalty sending the "Albiceleste" to the World Cup finals for the first time in 24 years, since Maradona had led the team to the ultimate stage in Italy only to lose to the same rival this 2014 team will have to overcome on Sunday.
I'm getting ahead of myself though, nobody in Argentina was even thinking about Sunday's final on Wednesday night. As the rest of the Argentine team sprinted toward Romero and Maxi Rodriguez to celebrate the win, all of Buenos Aires headed to its windows and balconies to do the same, singing and yelling and cheering. Within minutes the streets began to repopulate as cars and pedestrians alike made their way toward different meeting points in the city, the Plaza de la República, the Plaza de Mayo, and other important intersections. In a chorus of honking horns and hoarsely screamed songs, the country joined together in celebration. My parents, my sister, and I couldn't help but join in. We sang along as well as we could, making up the parts of the songs we didn't know and screaming along with the parts we did know, which as the night went along became more extensive. Flags and jerseys waved and swirled overhead, arms flailed, guys and girls alike ran arm in arm (some even skipped along) while cheering and singing, it was the closest I've even been to witnessing so much joy together. All the main avenues of the city were blocked off to automobile traffic and were turned into pedestrian walkways. For the first time ever, the chaos of cars and people didn't lead to cursing and fighting. When pedestrians would cut in front of slowly moving cars, instead of being insulted and threatened as would happen in normal circumstances, the drivers would respond by honking the horn in tune with whatever song the crowd was singing at the time, and the passengers would join in with the cheers while hanging out of the windows and out of the sunroof. It was unlike anything I'd ever seen.
We finally made our way along with the crowd to the Obelisco where already thousands of people had gathered. We stayed for a little while to enjoy the celebrations, but after a little while decided to head back home before things got too rowdy (my injured knee would have made it difficult to run in case a fight or another sort of disturbance were to break out...). As we walked back, the crowds kept coming, an eternal parade of bliss made up babies in strollers, children on shoulders, teens and young adults, middle-aged men and women, and even elderly folks from all different social backgrounds joined together, if just for a couple hours, to relish in the excitement of Argentina's return to the World Cup finals.
(In an upcoming post I'll talk a little bit about why the World Cup and soccer can inspire such a celebration in Argentina)
The adventures and musings of a twenty-something yankee goalkeeper in Buenos Aires
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Monday, June 23, 2014
An unexpected, untimely, and undesired end to my season: ACLs, MCLs, and MRIs, oh my!
I hate to start a blog with a vague platitude which could be interpreted as empty and shallow, but in this case I feel as though this one truly does apply to my situation. (Plus, it's not an easy topic to blog about). Life is full of unexpected twists and turns, and, unfortunately, mine took an unpleasant one recently, about two weeks ago if I'm to be more precise. I also do not want to be super dramatic because I recognize that what I'm going through is not the end of the world and is merely an unfortunate part of playing a high-impact sport, but it is certainly a situation I had until now been able to, and had always hoped to, avoid.
Throughout my playing career I have seen countless teammates experience the same injury, but no two recoveries have been the same. Some came back stronger than before, others came back but took longer to regain their playing rhythm, others came back only to be injured yet again, and still others never even managed to come back. I obviously hope to be among the first group, a hope which will have to be accompanied by a disciplined rehab process.
I suppose before I go into too much more detail about the recovery, I should probably just come out and say what my injury actually is, if you have not already guessed. If you want another hint—especially if you follow international soccer—, it's the same injury that kept Radamel Falcao, Theo Walcott, and Victor Valdes out of the World Cup in Brazil. It's an injury which requires surgery and a minimum of 6 months rehabilitation before being cleared to compete again. Part of my resistance to directly state what happened is due to the resistance to admit and accept what happened to me, but our team psychologist (porteños love psychologists, which I will probably have to elaborate upon in another post) told me that acceptance is the first step towards a positive recovery. Well, here goes... In our game against Estudiantes de La Plata on June 8th, I tore my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) and medial collateral ligament (MCL) in my left knee during an Estudiantes corner kick with only 15 minutes or so remaining in the second half and with River winning 3-0.
I don't know what really happened. I think I just landed wrong, and when I tried to change directions to react to a rebound, I felt my knee collapse inwards and heard something pop. Honestly, I only vaguely remember what happened before the injury, and then, with perfect clarity, I can see myself lying on the ground inside the goal crying like I've never cried before, not so much because of the pain, but because in that moment my brain started to run at 100 miles per hour. First I thought about missing the rest of the game, then about missing the rest of the season, then about missing the Copa Libertadores, then about losing the opportunity to play with the national team, and finally about the injury possibly being the end of my playing career. It felt almost as though it had happened to somebody else, almost like those nightmares in which you watch yourself suffer your worst fears, not in first person but instead from a distance, helpless and unable to do anything but stand back and be a spectator to your own pain. (Slightly overdramatic perhaps, but in that moment, it felt as though my world was coming crashing down, all the hard work and preparation invested during this season and the previous seasons were rendered useless in a matter of seconds.)
Some of my teammates and some people who watched the match thought someone pushed me when I jumped. It was a mess in the box and that team is known for taking cheap shots. My center back heard another teammate say that an Estudiantes player had hit me, and she completely lost it—or so I'm told, I didn't even know she had received a yellow card after that play—, jumping up to yell at the referee and push a few Estudiantes players around. Either way, whether someone pushed me or I fell on my own, I was injured, and no looking back on how it happened was going to change that.
When the team doctor and trainer ran over to me, it took a while for them to calm me down, I only stopped bawling after they each did the initial ACL test, and both said it was negative and the only ligament which appeared to be injured was the MCL, which only requires about 2 months of non-surgical recovery and rehabilitation. To be safe, however, the doctor ordered an X-Ray (for any potential bone damage) and an MRI (to see the ligaments) of my knee for the next night to truly be able to diagnose the injury. Before my MRI, one of the orthopedists at River saw me and also did some physical tests of my knee, and he came up with the same preliminary diagnosis as the team doc and the team trainer, a sprain or partial tear of the MCL. Despite the confidence with which the medical team assured me that I had most likely only damaged the MCL, I couldn't help but consider the possibility that I had also torn my ACL after hearing so many stories of what my teammates felt when they had torn theirs.
The next afternoon, my fears were confirmed. The team doctor called me and informed me that the MRI report showed I had in fact torn both my MCL and my ACL (could I use more acronyms??). Luckily, I was with two friends who were able to confort me when I involuntarily began to cry yet again, not quite as bad as right after the injury but possibly in a more embarrassing environment, the cafeteria at my university. They helped me regain my composure in time to go to class, but it was still nearly impossible for me to concentrate on what the professor was saying as my brain was whirring once again at the speed of light, or so I'd like to think, considering all possible outcomes to my situation. Add to my concerns the constant vibration of my phone as concerned friends, teammates, and coaches sent me consoling messages, and you can understand why my page of notes for that 3 hour class was almost empty except for a few unintelligible lines.
The official team announcement regarding my injury was made during our weekly meeting with the club psychologist. Surprisingly, no tears were shed. Our team goal for the season is and has always been to win the league and classify for the Copa Libertadores, the South American version of the UEFA Champions League. Already we've had to deal with multiple obstacles, our roster has changed significantly since the beginning of the season, we have to fight daily with the mens' teams for the right to use the fields at the club, weekend after weekend of suspended games due to weather and holidays, but after each challenge we've grown stronger as a team, more united and more driven to accomplish our goal.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a typical American, feel-good, inspirational sports film. Here come the underdogs, year after year coming in second or third, always falling short of the ultimate prize to their main rivals (Boca), but not this year, this year is going to be the one. Everything is coming together to make it happen; despite minor setbacks along the way, all the pieces appear to be falling into place, but then, when everything seems right, something devastating happens, a major injury to a player in a position where the only back-up has not played competitively for over a year and a half. Can the team overcome this seemingly impossible obstacle? My team's situation has all the makings for a great movie, and I know my team has the potential and the ability to achieve a glorious ending, but I wish my role would have been a different one or our obstacle could have been more like an anonymous enemy trying to sabotage our season... Nevertheless, the situation is what it is, and now I have to start the long road to recovery, taking it one day at a time.
Thankfully, I am blessed to be surrounded by a community of friends, family, and teammates who will help me along the way. My team made that clear before our game on Friday, holding up a banner which said: "Everyday is a new beginning. You are not alone. We love you Gaby!" Needless to say, in my current state as a "glass case of emotion", when I saw the banner, I began to sob tears of joy and sadness at the same time, thankful for the sign of support which I know is more than words.
So, here's to River Plate Women's Soccer and to the growth which comes along with facing the challenges life throws in our path.
Throughout my playing career I have seen countless teammates experience the same injury, but no two recoveries have been the same. Some came back stronger than before, others came back but took longer to regain their playing rhythm, others came back only to be injured yet again, and still others never even managed to come back. I obviously hope to be among the first group, a hope which will have to be accompanied by a disciplined rehab process.
I suppose before I go into too much more detail about the recovery, I should probably just come out and say what my injury actually is, if you have not already guessed. If you want another hint—especially if you follow international soccer—, it's the same injury that kept Radamel Falcao, Theo Walcott, and Victor Valdes out of the World Cup in Brazil. It's an injury which requires surgery and a minimum of 6 months rehabilitation before being cleared to compete again. Part of my resistance to directly state what happened is due to the resistance to admit and accept what happened to me, but our team psychologist (porteños love psychologists, which I will probably have to elaborate upon in another post) told me that acceptance is the first step towards a positive recovery. Well, here goes... In our game against Estudiantes de La Plata on June 8th, I tore my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) and medial collateral ligament (MCL) in my left knee during an Estudiantes corner kick with only 15 minutes or so remaining in the second half and with River winning 3-0.
I don't know what really happened. I think I just landed wrong, and when I tried to change directions to react to a rebound, I felt my knee collapse inwards and heard something pop. Honestly, I only vaguely remember what happened before the injury, and then, with perfect clarity, I can see myself lying on the ground inside the goal crying like I've never cried before, not so much because of the pain, but because in that moment my brain started to run at 100 miles per hour. First I thought about missing the rest of the game, then about missing the rest of the season, then about missing the Copa Libertadores, then about losing the opportunity to play with the national team, and finally about the injury possibly being the end of my playing career. It felt almost as though it had happened to somebody else, almost like those nightmares in which you watch yourself suffer your worst fears, not in first person but instead from a distance, helpless and unable to do anything but stand back and be a spectator to your own pain. (Slightly overdramatic perhaps, but in that moment, it felt as though my world was coming crashing down, all the hard work and preparation invested during this season and the previous seasons were rendered useless in a matter of seconds.)
Some of my teammates and some people who watched the match thought someone pushed me when I jumped. It was a mess in the box and that team is known for taking cheap shots. My center back heard another teammate say that an Estudiantes player had hit me, and she completely lost it—or so I'm told, I didn't even know she had received a yellow card after that play—, jumping up to yell at the referee and push a few Estudiantes players around. Either way, whether someone pushed me or I fell on my own, I was injured, and no looking back on how it happened was going to change that.
When the team doctor and trainer ran over to me, it took a while for them to calm me down, I only stopped bawling after they each did the initial ACL test, and both said it was negative and the only ligament which appeared to be injured was the MCL, which only requires about 2 months of non-surgical recovery and rehabilitation. To be safe, however, the doctor ordered an X-Ray (for any potential bone damage) and an MRI (to see the ligaments) of my knee for the next night to truly be able to diagnose the injury. Before my MRI, one of the orthopedists at River saw me and also did some physical tests of my knee, and he came up with the same preliminary diagnosis as the team doc and the team trainer, a sprain or partial tear of the MCL. Despite the confidence with which the medical team assured me that I had most likely only damaged the MCL, I couldn't help but consider the possibility that I had also torn my ACL after hearing so many stories of what my teammates felt when they had torn theirs.
The next afternoon, my fears were confirmed. The team doctor called me and informed me that the MRI report showed I had in fact torn both my MCL and my ACL (could I use more acronyms??). Luckily, I was with two friends who were able to confort me when I involuntarily began to cry yet again, not quite as bad as right after the injury but possibly in a more embarrassing environment, the cafeteria at my university. They helped me regain my composure in time to go to class, but it was still nearly impossible for me to concentrate on what the professor was saying as my brain was whirring once again at the speed of light, or so I'd like to think, considering all possible outcomes to my situation. Add to my concerns the constant vibration of my phone as concerned friends, teammates, and coaches sent me consoling messages, and you can understand why my page of notes for that 3 hour class was almost empty except for a few unintelligible lines.
The official team announcement regarding my injury was made during our weekly meeting with the club psychologist. Surprisingly, no tears were shed. Our team goal for the season is and has always been to win the league and classify for the Copa Libertadores, the South American version of the UEFA Champions League. Already we've had to deal with multiple obstacles, our roster has changed significantly since the beginning of the season, we have to fight daily with the mens' teams for the right to use the fields at the club, weekend after weekend of suspended games due to weather and holidays, but after each challenge we've grown stronger as a team, more united and more driven to accomplish our goal.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a typical American, feel-good, inspirational sports film. Here come the underdogs, year after year coming in second or third, always falling short of the ultimate prize to their main rivals (Boca), but not this year, this year is going to be the one. Everything is coming together to make it happen; despite minor setbacks along the way, all the pieces appear to be falling into place, but then, when everything seems right, something devastating happens, a major injury to a player in a position where the only back-up has not played competitively for over a year and a half. Can the team overcome this seemingly impossible obstacle? My team's situation has all the makings for a great movie, and I know my team has the potential and the ability to achieve a glorious ending, but I wish my role would have been a different one or our obstacle could have been more like an anonymous enemy trying to sabotage our season... Nevertheless, the situation is what it is, and now I have to start the long road to recovery, taking it one day at a time.
Thankfully, I am blessed to be surrounded by a community of friends, family, and teammates who will help me along the way. My team made that clear before our game on Friday, holding up a banner which said: "Everyday is a new beginning. You are not alone. We love you Gaby!" Needless to say, in my current state as a "glass case of emotion", when I saw the banner, I began to sob tears of joy and sadness at the same time, thankful for the sign of support which I know is more than words.
So, here's to River Plate Women's Soccer and to the growth which comes along with facing the challenges life throws in our path.
Sunday, June 15, 2014
A brief word of thanks and encouragement to old, new, and future dads
Due to present circumstances, on which I will elaborate in an upcoming post, this post will be a rather short, but I hope sweet, reflection on fatherhood.
As this is the second straight Father's Day I am spending away from my father, my thoughts might be slightly more nostalgic or romanticized than normal, but the praise I give my dad is fully deserved. Being thousands of miles away from my family allows me to step back a little and realize how blessed I am to have such loving parents. The distance certainly doesn't ease the pain of missing them especially in the difficult moments when the easiest way to react is to let your dad wrap you in a big bear hug and reassure you that everything is going to turn out fine, but I can rest in the knowledge that despite the fact that we are separated by an 11-hour plane ride, my dad (don't worry, mom, I know you love me too!) loves me more than I can imagine and desires the very best for my life, which is why he (and my mom) was willing to let me go so far away to pursue my dreams.
I'm trying to imagine my dad not as a dad, but it's impossible. Being a dad is part of his DNA. It's almost as though when he took on the role of father, all his best qualities were able to reveal themselves to the fullest—love, patience, kindness, service, selflessness, wisdom, honesty. Obviously, I know that's not the case; the transition to fatherhood was neither automatic nor easy. My father was not born a father, the responsibility is not a simple undertaking nor was it a position which comes with a handbook and training. Fatherhood is not a job which always produces tangible rewards; years and years of investment of time, money, and effort can go by without any returns or clear recognition. However, I want to encourage the fathers reading this to strive on, to be an example of what true selfless love is, not just to their children and to their wives but also to the other men in their community; to fight against the temptation of taking the easy way out, the path of least resistance; to lead their family mercifully yet justly because while the rewards may not be visible immediately, when the harvest comes, all the toil put in to the raising of their children will be evident for generations to come.
Fatherhood is an enormous responsibility, but, done right, it is a truly beautiful manifestation of unconditional love and leadership.
As this is the second straight Father's Day I am spending away from my father, my thoughts might be slightly more nostalgic or romanticized than normal, but the praise I give my dad is fully deserved. Being thousands of miles away from my family allows me to step back a little and realize how blessed I am to have such loving parents. The distance certainly doesn't ease the pain of missing them especially in the difficult moments when the easiest way to react is to let your dad wrap you in a big bear hug and reassure you that everything is going to turn out fine, but I can rest in the knowledge that despite the fact that we are separated by an 11-hour plane ride, my dad (don't worry, mom, I know you love me too!) loves me more than I can imagine and desires the very best for my life, which is why he (and my mom) was willing to let me go so far away to pursue my dreams.
I'm trying to imagine my dad not as a dad, but it's impossible. Being a dad is part of his DNA. It's almost as though when he took on the role of father, all his best qualities were able to reveal themselves to the fullest—love, patience, kindness, service, selflessness, wisdom, honesty. Obviously, I know that's not the case; the transition to fatherhood was neither automatic nor easy. My father was not born a father, the responsibility is not a simple undertaking nor was it a position which comes with a handbook and training. Fatherhood is not a job which always produces tangible rewards; years and years of investment of time, money, and effort can go by without any returns or clear recognition. However, I want to encourage the fathers reading this to strive on, to be an example of what true selfless love is, not just to their children and to their wives but also to the other men in their community; to fight against the temptation of taking the easy way out, the path of least resistance; to lead their family mercifully yet justly because while the rewards may not be visible immediately, when the harvest comes, all the toil put in to the raising of their children will be evident for generations to come.
Fatherhood is an enormous responsibility, but, done right, it is a truly beautiful manifestation of unconditional love and leadership.
Sunday, May 11, 2014
One is not just born a mother... An ode to mothers everywhere—past, present, and future
[This post is dedicated to my (brave) friends who are celebrating their first Mother's Day from the other 'hood: motherhood]
Motherhood is a difficult topic to reflect upon at this moment, lately it's been a rather sensitive subject and something which has been crossing my mind more frequently than ever before. For most of my life, up until the last few years, I had been able to admire mothers all around me, my own mother, my friends' mothers, teachers, professors, church leaders, etc, relishing their loving guidance and sacrifice which just seemed to flow naturally. It never occurred to me that at one point, these women had been young single ladies just like me, trying to figure out their careers, scoping out potential boyfriend candidates, going out with friends, and just learning to survive on their own.
Recently, however, I've become more aware of the fact that these women—my mother included— were not always mothers (I know, crazy right?), even though I had always known them in that role. This realization has been brought about by a combination of factors, hormones probably being one such factor but not a principal contributor. In the last year or two, various childhood, high school, and college friends have become, or are in the process of becoming, mothers. These are friends with whom I used to wonder and speculate about who we would marry, what our future children would be like, and other such "grown-up" plans but always as events which were far off, intangible, almost as fantastic as hoping to get into Hogwart's School of Witchcraft and Wizardry (I apologize if I have just crushed the hopes and dreams of some young reader still waiting for his/her acceptance letter...).
Now, those daydreams are becoming reality, I no longer have to imagine what my best friend from high school's baby will look like because he's already here, as of about a month ago. It's not at all that I'm scared for my friends as they take on their new roles as mothers; I think I'm scared that soon I'm going to be in a similar situation, maybe not within the next few years but, even so, motherhood is much closer than it was in high school or even college. What will the transition be like? Will my future husband and I know when we're ready to be parents?
I think the scariest thing of all is the responsibility which comes with motherhood: the task of not just taking care of a baby, then a toddler, then a child, and so forth, but the realization that, as a mother, you have the responsibility of raising a human being, teaching your child how to live, guiding him until he is ready to live independently and begin his own career and family, leaving his own footprint on this world, for good or for bad, and while a mother can neither predict nor control who her child will become, she has an essential role in the entire process.
Add to all those concerns society's message that children are not blessings but actually burdens, weights which anchor us down, holding us back from achieving our career and life goals, from living life to the fullest, enjoying everything this world has to offer. Sometimes I even start to believe that lie as I walk around Buenos Aires and see the tired faces of countless mothers pushing one child in a stroller while yelling after her other child who is running ahead along the sidewalk, but when I least expect it, God reveals a glimpse of true beauty...
A toddler running, or, rather, teetering, towards her mother with her arms reached high over her head, a smile too big for her little face which brightens up the mood of everyone within a fifteen meter radius, as her mother sweeps her up into a loving embrace.
A fourteen-year-old girl cries as her middle-aged mother hugs her, caressing her hair, reassuring her that she is beautiful and loved, and will always be loved, no matter what life may throw in her direction.
A twenty-three-year-old young lady far from home, confused about which career path to take, worried about how to grow up, shares all her concerns, her hopes, her dreams with her mother via a video call, only to hear her mother tell her she loves her more than she could ever imagine and will always be there to support her and listen.
Okay, maybe the last example was a bit close to home, but that's when I realize the relationship between a parent and child is something so unique, so special, so complex that trying to wrap your head around it is just as futile as trying to grasp the depth, width, and height of God's love for us. There is certainly a reason God chose to use the image of a Father and child to illustrate His relationship with us through Christ.
I have been blessed with a mother who has exemplified true love, guidance, and sacrifice for her children in every possible way. She and my father have made not only a wonderful parenting team but also have been a reflection of a Godly, loving, and committed marriage relationship, and I could not be more thankful for them. I pray that as my friends and I head into this next stage of life (if it's something we are called to do), we too would be able to reflect Christ's love in our marriages and in our relationships with our children.
To all the mothers and soon-to-be mothers reading this, I want to encourage you and wish you a happy Mother's Day. Thanks for all the sacrifices you make and for showing us what it means to love without expecting anything in return, to love completely selflessly, to be a bit of Heaven on earth.
Sunday, May 4, 2014
A peace only found on Sundays
Sundays are the best days in Buenos Aires (a declaration I may have already made in a previous post, but I'd like to reaffirm the idea), especially Sundays during a long weekend. Near silence replaces the typical honking horns, car alarms, police and ambulance sirens, truck and bus engines, and the general bustle of the city during the week as the city's residents, the porteños, self-loved but almost unanimously hated throughout the rest of the country, hide away in their apartments and houses and spend the day just being lazy and enjoying time with family while the most wealthy flee to their weekend homes.
Even along the commercialized major avenues, silence reigns. Almost everything is closed, the only stores which open regularly on Sundays, except in the shopping malls, are the supermarkets, the "chinos," (I know it sounds racist, but that's what they're called here) grocery stores owned by East Asians, and the "kioskos," which are essentially tiny convenience stores found on nearly every block throughout the entire city. The same sidewalks which during the week are so packed that it is nearly impossible to walk without bumping into somebody, especially if one is in a hurry, on Sundays are almost completely deserted and one can ramble along at one's own pace without worrying about upsetting a horde of pedestrians trying to get where they need to go.
Obviously, even on Sundays, in a major city like Buenos Aires, there are plenty of opportunities to be around crowds—soccer matches, along the river (on sunny days), and in other touristy areas—, but if one wants to enjoy the rare calm of one of South America's largest cities, Sunday is the best day to do so.
Few joys in life compare to waking up without an alarm clock on a Sunday morning to the absence of sound, silence, a rarity and a delicacy for city dwellers. The sound of an engine as a car or motorcycle passes along the street below or the low murmur of a family talking on it's way to morning mass will occasionally interrupt the otherwise complete silence, but the overall feeling of peace and quiet remains unbroken.
The peace found on Sundays is a small escape and distraction from the city, the country, and the world's problems. It's the day one can forget about issues at work, about terrible traffic and inconsistent public transport, about drug wars and rumors of wars in the East, about over-crowding and inadequate infrastructure, about corruption and inflation, and just enjoy the simple pleasures of a home-cooked pasta lunch or a barbecue, asado, with family and friends, of snuggling up on the couch alongside your family with a good book and a cup of coffee, of sitting on the living room floor with the kids and playing with building blocks or puzzles. Aren't these simple pleasures a glimpse at the essence of life? Why else go through the stresses of school, work, and taxes except to be able to enjoy time with those you love while having a place to live and food to eat? I love Sundays because they give us the peace required to rest and reflect on such things.
I'll conclude my ramblings with a quote from one of my favorite thinkers and authors, C.S. Lewis, who elaborated, much more elegantly than I, on this idea of life's simple pleasures but in the context of the simplicity of the purpose of Christianity:
"This is the whole of Christianity. There is nothing else. It is so easy to get muddled about that. It is easy to think that the Church has a lot of different objects—education, building, missions, holding services. Just as it is easy to think the State has a lot of different objects—military, political, economic, and what not. But in a way things are much simpler than that. The State exists simply to promote and to protect the ordinary happiness of human beings in this life. A husband and wife chatting over a fire, a couple of friends having a game of darts in a pub, a man reading a book in his own room or digging in his own garden— that is what the State is there for. And unless they are helping to increase and prolong and protect such moments, all the laws, parliaments, armies, courts, police, economics, etc., are simply a waste of time. In the same way, the Church exists for nothing else but to draw men into Christ, to make them little Christs. If they are not doing that, all the cathedrals, clergy, missions, sermons, even the Bible itself, are simply a waste of time. God became man for no other purpose. It is even doubtful, you know, whether the whole universe was created for any other purpose." (from Mere Christianity)
Even along the commercialized major avenues, silence reigns. Almost everything is closed, the only stores which open regularly on Sundays, except in the shopping malls, are the supermarkets, the "chinos," (I know it sounds racist, but that's what they're called here) grocery stores owned by East Asians, and the "kioskos," which are essentially tiny convenience stores found on nearly every block throughout the entire city. The same sidewalks which during the week are so packed that it is nearly impossible to walk without bumping into somebody, especially if one is in a hurry, on Sundays are almost completely deserted and one can ramble along at one's own pace without worrying about upsetting a horde of pedestrians trying to get where they need to go.
Obviously, even on Sundays, in a major city like Buenos Aires, there are plenty of opportunities to be around crowds—soccer matches, along the river (on sunny days), and in other touristy areas—, but if one wants to enjoy the rare calm of one of South America's largest cities, Sunday is the best day to do so.
Few joys in life compare to waking up without an alarm clock on a Sunday morning to the absence of sound, silence, a rarity and a delicacy for city dwellers. The sound of an engine as a car or motorcycle passes along the street below or the low murmur of a family talking on it's way to morning mass will occasionally interrupt the otherwise complete silence, but the overall feeling of peace and quiet remains unbroken.
The peace found on Sundays is a small escape and distraction from the city, the country, and the world's problems. It's the day one can forget about issues at work, about terrible traffic and inconsistent public transport, about drug wars and rumors of wars in the East, about over-crowding and inadequate infrastructure, about corruption and inflation, and just enjoy the simple pleasures of a home-cooked pasta lunch or a barbecue, asado, with family and friends, of snuggling up on the couch alongside your family with a good book and a cup of coffee, of sitting on the living room floor with the kids and playing with building blocks or puzzles. Aren't these simple pleasures a glimpse at the essence of life? Why else go through the stresses of school, work, and taxes except to be able to enjoy time with those you love while having a place to live and food to eat? I love Sundays because they give us the peace required to rest and reflect on such things.
I'll conclude my ramblings with a quote from one of my favorite thinkers and authors, C.S. Lewis, who elaborated, much more elegantly than I, on this idea of life's simple pleasures but in the context of the simplicity of the purpose of Christianity:
"This is the whole of Christianity. There is nothing else. It is so easy to get muddled about that. It is easy to think that the Church has a lot of different objects—education, building, missions, holding services. Just as it is easy to think the State has a lot of different objects—military, political, economic, and what not. But in a way things are much simpler than that. The State exists simply to promote and to protect the ordinary happiness of human beings in this life. A husband and wife chatting over a fire, a couple of friends having a game of darts in a pub, a man reading a book in his own room or digging in his own garden— that is what the State is there for. And unless they are helping to increase and prolong and protect such moments, all the laws, parliaments, armies, courts, police, economics, etc., are simply a waste of time. In the same way, the Church exists for nothing else but to draw men into Christ, to make them little Christs. If they are not doing that, all the cathedrals, clergy, missions, sermons, even the Bible itself, are simply a waste of time. God became man for no other purpose. It is even doubtful, you know, whether the whole universe was created for any other purpose." (from Mere Christianity)
Friday, March 14, 2014
Argentine Soccer, a tragic paradox. Part 2: Drugs, guns, thugs and how I got to see it all in one night.
As I briefly elaborated upon in my last blog post (which is much more uplifting than the one you are about to read), Argentine soccer is a paradox, a home to two parallel worlds which coexist not-so-peacefully, where joy, passion, and unity are often overshadowed by violence, aggression, and even murder. A night which had been so special and one I will remember and cherish forever, hopefully one day sharing the experience with my future children, was forever marred by a couple of ugly episodes.
Looking back on the incident, I'm not sure "marred" is the correct term to describe how my memory will have been affected. More than having "marred"the beautiful memory of walking out onto the center circle of River Plate's Stadium (El Monumental), I should say, rather, that it brought me back down to earth, or jerked me back to reality. This post is especially relevant now, as the violent underside of Argentine soccer reared its head in a ferocious manner once again this past Monday in a massive fight between two gangs within the same Barra Brava*, leading to the hospitalization of at least seven men and leaving even more injured. You wouldn't have known it though, if you had only been watching the game on TV, as the public television station (which has exclusive video rights to all Argentine games) conveniently hid any footage of the fight, focusing the cameras on the field and perpetuating the hollow narrative that "soccer's a beautiful game to be enjoyed with your friends, fellow fans, and even your wife and kids, and everything's just fine and dandy."
*(my brief definition of a Barra Brava: the US equivalent of a gang or mob with an alliance to a particular club which funds itself through drug dealing, black market trade, and any other sort of illegal, lucrative "business." They are the loudest "fans" at the soccer matches and have influence among the upper brass of the clubs, with the national soccer federation leadership, and even with local and national politicians—a small, or large, bribe goes a long way... Also, the term "barra" can be used to refer to a member of a "Barra Brava", slightly confusing but more concise than saying "member of a 'Barra Brava'")
If everything's so "fine and dandy," why on game days are their hundreds and even thousands of federal police patrolling River's stadium and the surrounding neighborhood within at least a 10 block radius with SWAT teams ready and armed for any sign of trouble? If everything's so "fine and dandy," why don't I, as a young woman, feel safe going to and from the stadium alone? If everything's so "fine and dandy," why are visiting crowds banned from stadiums?
It would be extremely difficult to sum up the role of soccer in Argentine politics in just one blog post, but I'll try to do it with one phrase which comes from the time of the Roman Caesars: "pan y circo" (or literally "Bread and Circus"). It's a political theory which sustains that if a government can keep its citizens fed and entertained, it can maintain power essentially through distraction and appeasement. In Argentina, football, or soccer, is the circus (the bread can be left for a potential future post...).
During the time of the military dictatorship of the late 1970s and early 1980s, it was the Argentine national team winning the 1978 World Cup which helped the government gain popularity by covering up any sort of political or economic issues plaguing the country. The same strategy continues to be used by modern Argentine governments: "We may be heading toward an economic crisis with inflation approaching (or maybe even passing) 30%, but who cares? Everybody has access to watch Argentine games, thanks to public television funded by yours truly!"
When you read the sports' section in the Argentine newspapers, it's always the same old story but with different characters. The pages are filled with scores, game analysis, criticism, huge transfer fees, rumors of unrest among teammates and coaches, players demanding wage increases to their already exorbitant salaries, but there's always an awkward silence, one could even say an elephant in the room, which only manifests itself in the most extreme of circumstances, usually involving at least one death. Rarely do you hear about what you see every time you go to a soccer match, what I saw on my way to and from the River Plate-Gimnasia de La Plata game about a month ago. Luckily, I wasn't traveling alone.
I took the bus with two teammates, K and L, and my boyfriend (aka our bodyguard), C. The bus was initially relatively empty, but unfortunately not empty enough as to where there were seats available. The crowd was fairly normal, and the lighthearted, laid-back atmosphere of a sunny Sunday afternoon permeated the atmosphere. Everybody was laughing or talking with their family and/or friends until, at one stop, the whole bus went silent.
During the trip, more and more people had boarded so we were now traveling almost like sardines, or like one travels by bus any day of the week in Buenos Aires during rush hour. My two teammates had made their way to the back where they had a better chance at finding a seat. My boyfriend and I had found a spot in the middle of the bus to lean against comfortably so we stayed where we were. Alright, back to the silence. Two members of River's "Barra Brava" had gotten on, both recognizable by the smell of body odor, alcohol, and "illicit substances" which preceded them, as well as by their tattoo-covered exposed arms and calves. They were decked out in unofficial River Plate gear (I say "unofficial" because the production and sale of "unofficial" team merchandise is a major part of the Barras' income along with charging for public parking around the stadium on game days). I can't remember if they were wearing hats or not, but I do remember my boyfriend and I were lucky enough to have them stand right in front of us. C reacted instinctively and put himself between the two thugs and me.
The silence was broken by the two "barras" who began to sing River chants, barely enunciating the words as their tongues were severely inhibited by the level of alcohol and who knows what else in their blood. No one else dared to speak, the only communication was through knowing glances and body language. Everyone hid their cell phones and the only passenger who didn't do so initially, did quickly after when he saw the nearest "barra" eyeing his new Samsung Galaxy. When the two thugs stopped "singing," they began to entertain themselves by making fun of the different passengers. I didn't manage to hear, or to understand for that matter, exactly what they said, which was probably for the better, as my boyfriend later informed me that they were not saying anything nice. For as long as the "barras" were on the bus, the tension didn't release, it was almost as though people were holding their breath out of fear of breathing too loud. Finally, when the two thugs got off, the whole bus, including the driver, let out a collective sigh of relief, and the passengers resumed their conversations where they had left off.
At this point, I'm going to skip to after the first half of the game (you can read about what happened in between here, which is a much lovelier story) since luckily that part of the evening was basically "barra"-free.
K and I decided to leave at halftime (at 10:30 pm...) to avoid the end of the game mass exodus and in order to get home at a reasonable hour (also, my boyfriend/bodyguard was waiting for me in a café around the stadium, so I didn't want to make him wait too much longer...). We walked the 5 blocks from the stadium to the bus stop where we were to meet my boyfriend alone, but we never felt unsafe as there were police on every corner. When we got to the avenue, C pointed out a man about 50 meters away who had been brutally beaten. His face was completely covered in blood and he couldn't stand up (whether it was from drunkenness or injury, we couldn't tell), but the SWAT van next to where we were standing, full of federal police, remained parked there; not even one cop went over to check on the wounded man. (Now, looking back, we probably should have checked on him, though I'm not sure what we would have been able to do to help...)
We waited for the bus for a little over fifteen minutes, and when one finally came, we gladly hopped on and sat down together in the last row of 5 seats. My friend and I sat closest to the window while my boyfriend sat in the middle, almost as our shield. Everything was fine, the bus was fairly quiet due to the late hour, but the atmosphere was calm. We talked amongst ourselves about the game and the experience until a group of three "barras" got on. These men were even more intoxicated than the ones we had seen on the way to the game. They tried to start conversations with the different passengers, including us, pointing to our River apparel, offering to "trade shirts," and even asking at which stop we would be getting off—to which C lied and told them we were going to Retiro, a major train/bus station. The "barra" responded and said they were going there too. One of the three sat down next to C, one remained standing, and the third plopped himself down, blocking the stairwell of the rear exit to the bus, removed his shirt, and leaned against the barrier separating my seat from him, barely able to hold his head up. Almost immediately, I felt my boyfriend clench my hand tightly and grow serious. I tried to ignore the thugs and talk with my teammate in a low voice while still remaining aware of the situation.
At one point I thought they were going to get into a fight with one passenger who was wearing a sweatshirt over a soccer jersey with the same blue and yellow of Boca Juniors. Luckily, I think he told them it was a Colombian jersey, and they left him alone. They began to talk amongst themselves, and the one who was seated in the stairwell took something out of his shorts and put it in his backpack. At this point, my boyfriend's stare was completely fixated on them, and as I followed his gaze to the backpack on the floor, I, too, became tense when I saw what looked like a switchblade inside.
As we approached our stop, I suggested we move toward the front of the bus, but my boyfriend said to wait until we were closer. I obliged, and when we were a block away, we made our move for the middle exit, rang for the stop, and got off as quickly as possible. Before I could even say anything to C about what had just happened, he was already on his phone dialing 911 (yes it's the same number in Buenos Aires...).
"Hi, I just got off a 130 bus going south, and there are 3 men dressed in River Plate gear, one has a hat, another is wearing..."(he continued to describe the men, gave our location, and passed along the exact number of the bus we had been on)"...and one is carrying a 9 mm handgun. I am unsure if the others are also armed. They are going to Retiro and it is unclear whether they are planning to assault someone." He hung up, and K and I looked at each other somewhat in shock. Within minutes a police cruiser went flying by us headed towards Retiro. Needless to say, we were relatively shaken up, and I finally understood why my boyfriend has been so nervous during the ride. A bus full of unarmed passengers makes for an easy target for thugs with a 9 mm.
I'm extremely thankful my boyfriend was there, and even more grateful that nothing more happened, but the events of that night were certainly a reality check and an ugly way end to the evening. In the next day's paper, the only reference to the River game was the final scoreline, an analysis of each team's performance, a summary of the homage to the firefighters, and only silence about the thugs who turned a dream walkout onto the field into a frightening nightmare.
POST SCRIPT: About two weeks after that night, my boyfriend and I went to grab lunch at a food stand in the Bosques de Palermo (one of the nicest parks in the city). It was our lucky day as we were to be reunited with one of our "barra" buddies from the ride to the stadium. He was with one other thug and a chubby, pouty boy of about 12 years old, who we supposed was his son. They bought a soda to share between them, came to sit at the table right next to ours, and began to smoke something which was certainly not tobacco. We didn't hang around for long, but we were there long enough to hear our "barra" friend call his son every curse word in the book for wanting to buy a sandwich, "Oh, that's sweet, you think we came to the park to play a little soccer, eat a sandwich, and have an ice-cream... But we're not, you idiot! (he used a different word, but I won't include it here) We're here on business, so get it together." Later on, we would find out that there had been a concert at a nearby stadium, so more than likely the "barras" had arrived early in order to collect parking "fees" and make sure nobody left their car without paying their "dues."
Looking back on the incident, I'm not sure "marred" is the correct term to describe how my memory will have been affected. More than having "marred"the beautiful memory of walking out onto the center circle of River Plate's Stadium (El Monumental), I should say, rather, that it brought me back down to earth, or jerked me back to reality. This post is especially relevant now, as the violent underside of Argentine soccer reared its head in a ferocious manner once again this past Monday in a massive fight between two gangs within the same Barra Brava*, leading to the hospitalization of at least seven men and leaving even more injured. You wouldn't have known it though, if you had only been watching the game on TV, as the public television station (which has exclusive video rights to all Argentine games) conveniently hid any footage of the fight, focusing the cameras on the field and perpetuating the hollow narrative that "soccer's a beautiful game to be enjoyed with your friends, fellow fans, and even your wife and kids, and everything's just fine and dandy."
*(my brief definition of a Barra Brava: the US equivalent of a gang or mob with an alliance to a particular club which funds itself through drug dealing, black market trade, and any other sort of illegal, lucrative "business." They are the loudest "fans" at the soccer matches and have influence among the upper brass of the clubs, with the national soccer federation leadership, and even with local and national politicians—a small, or large, bribe goes a long way... Also, the term "barra" can be used to refer to a member of a "Barra Brava", slightly confusing but more concise than saying "member of a 'Barra Brava'")
If everything's so "fine and dandy," why on game days are their hundreds and even thousands of federal police patrolling River's stadium and the surrounding neighborhood within at least a 10 block radius with SWAT teams ready and armed for any sign of trouble? If everything's so "fine and dandy," why don't I, as a young woman, feel safe going to and from the stadium alone? If everything's so "fine and dandy," why are visiting crowds banned from stadiums?
It would be extremely difficult to sum up the role of soccer in Argentine politics in just one blog post, but I'll try to do it with one phrase which comes from the time of the Roman Caesars: "pan y circo" (or literally "Bread and Circus"). It's a political theory which sustains that if a government can keep its citizens fed and entertained, it can maintain power essentially through distraction and appeasement. In Argentina, football, or soccer, is the circus (the bread can be left for a potential future post...).
During the time of the military dictatorship of the late 1970s and early 1980s, it was the Argentine national team winning the 1978 World Cup which helped the government gain popularity by covering up any sort of political or economic issues plaguing the country. The same strategy continues to be used by modern Argentine governments: "We may be heading toward an economic crisis with inflation approaching (or maybe even passing) 30%, but who cares? Everybody has access to watch Argentine games, thanks to public television funded by yours truly!"
When you read the sports' section in the Argentine newspapers, it's always the same old story but with different characters. The pages are filled with scores, game analysis, criticism, huge transfer fees, rumors of unrest among teammates and coaches, players demanding wage increases to their already exorbitant salaries, but there's always an awkward silence, one could even say an elephant in the room, which only manifests itself in the most extreme of circumstances, usually involving at least one death. Rarely do you hear about what you see every time you go to a soccer match, what I saw on my way to and from the River Plate-Gimnasia de La Plata game about a month ago. Luckily, I wasn't traveling alone.
I took the bus with two teammates, K and L, and my boyfriend (aka our bodyguard), C. The bus was initially relatively empty, but unfortunately not empty enough as to where there were seats available. The crowd was fairly normal, and the lighthearted, laid-back atmosphere of a sunny Sunday afternoon permeated the atmosphere. Everybody was laughing or talking with their family and/or friends until, at one stop, the whole bus went silent.
During the trip, more and more people had boarded so we were now traveling almost like sardines, or like one travels by bus any day of the week in Buenos Aires during rush hour. My two teammates had made their way to the back where they had a better chance at finding a seat. My boyfriend and I had found a spot in the middle of the bus to lean against comfortably so we stayed where we were. Alright, back to the silence. Two members of River's "Barra Brava" had gotten on, both recognizable by the smell of body odor, alcohol, and "illicit substances" which preceded them, as well as by their tattoo-covered exposed arms and calves. They were decked out in unofficial River Plate gear (I say "unofficial" because the production and sale of "unofficial" team merchandise is a major part of the Barras' income along with charging for public parking around the stadium on game days). I can't remember if they were wearing hats or not, but I do remember my boyfriend and I were lucky enough to have them stand right in front of us. C reacted instinctively and put himself between the two thugs and me.
The silence was broken by the two "barras" who began to sing River chants, barely enunciating the words as their tongues were severely inhibited by the level of alcohol and who knows what else in their blood. No one else dared to speak, the only communication was through knowing glances and body language. Everyone hid their cell phones and the only passenger who didn't do so initially, did quickly after when he saw the nearest "barra" eyeing his new Samsung Galaxy. When the two thugs stopped "singing," they began to entertain themselves by making fun of the different passengers. I didn't manage to hear, or to understand for that matter, exactly what they said, which was probably for the better, as my boyfriend later informed me that they were not saying anything nice. For as long as the "barras" were on the bus, the tension didn't release, it was almost as though people were holding their breath out of fear of breathing too loud. Finally, when the two thugs got off, the whole bus, including the driver, let out a collective sigh of relief, and the passengers resumed their conversations where they had left off.
At this point, I'm going to skip to after the first half of the game (you can read about what happened in between here, which is a much lovelier story) since luckily that part of the evening was basically "barra"-free.
K and I decided to leave at halftime (at 10:30 pm...) to avoid the end of the game mass exodus and in order to get home at a reasonable hour (also, my boyfriend/bodyguard was waiting for me in a café around the stadium, so I didn't want to make him wait too much longer...). We walked the 5 blocks from the stadium to the bus stop where we were to meet my boyfriend alone, but we never felt unsafe as there were police on every corner. When we got to the avenue, C pointed out a man about 50 meters away who had been brutally beaten. His face was completely covered in blood and he couldn't stand up (whether it was from drunkenness or injury, we couldn't tell), but the SWAT van next to where we were standing, full of federal police, remained parked there; not even one cop went over to check on the wounded man. (Now, looking back, we probably should have checked on him, though I'm not sure what we would have been able to do to help...)
We waited for the bus for a little over fifteen minutes, and when one finally came, we gladly hopped on and sat down together in the last row of 5 seats. My friend and I sat closest to the window while my boyfriend sat in the middle, almost as our shield. Everything was fine, the bus was fairly quiet due to the late hour, but the atmosphere was calm. We talked amongst ourselves about the game and the experience until a group of three "barras" got on. These men were even more intoxicated than the ones we had seen on the way to the game. They tried to start conversations with the different passengers, including us, pointing to our River apparel, offering to "trade shirts," and even asking at which stop we would be getting off—to which C lied and told them we were going to Retiro, a major train/bus station. The "barra" responded and said they were going there too. One of the three sat down next to C, one remained standing, and the third plopped himself down, blocking the stairwell of the rear exit to the bus, removed his shirt, and leaned against the barrier separating my seat from him, barely able to hold his head up. Almost immediately, I felt my boyfriend clench my hand tightly and grow serious. I tried to ignore the thugs and talk with my teammate in a low voice while still remaining aware of the situation.
At one point I thought they were going to get into a fight with one passenger who was wearing a sweatshirt over a soccer jersey with the same blue and yellow of Boca Juniors. Luckily, I think he told them it was a Colombian jersey, and they left him alone. They began to talk amongst themselves, and the one who was seated in the stairwell took something out of his shorts and put it in his backpack. At this point, my boyfriend's stare was completely fixated on them, and as I followed his gaze to the backpack on the floor, I, too, became tense when I saw what looked like a switchblade inside.
As we approached our stop, I suggested we move toward the front of the bus, but my boyfriend said to wait until we were closer. I obliged, and when we were a block away, we made our move for the middle exit, rang for the stop, and got off as quickly as possible. Before I could even say anything to C about what had just happened, he was already on his phone dialing 911 (yes it's the same number in Buenos Aires...).
"Hi, I just got off a 130 bus going south, and there are 3 men dressed in River Plate gear, one has a hat, another is wearing..."(he continued to describe the men, gave our location, and passed along the exact number of the bus we had been on)"...and one is carrying a 9 mm handgun. I am unsure if the others are also armed. They are going to Retiro and it is unclear whether they are planning to assault someone." He hung up, and K and I looked at each other somewhat in shock. Within minutes a police cruiser went flying by us headed towards Retiro. Needless to say, we were relatively shaken up, and I finally understood why my boyfriend has been so nervous during the ride. A bus full of unarmed passengers makes for an easy target for thugs with a 9 mm.
I'm extremely thankful my boyfriend was there, and even more grateful that nothing more happened, but the events of that night were certainly a reality check and an ugly way end to the evening. In the next day's paper, the only reference to the River game was the final scoreline, an analysis of each team's performance, a summary of the homage to the firefighters, and only silence about the thugs who turned a dream walkout onto the field into a frightening nightmare.
POST SCRIPT: About two weeks after that night, my boyfriend and I went to grab lunch at a food stand in the Bosques de Palermo (one of the nicest parks in the city). It was our lucky day as we were to be reunited with one of our "barra" buddies from the ride to the stadium. He was with one other thug and a chubby, pouty boy of about 12 years old, who we supposed was his son. They bought a soda to share between them, came to sit at the table right next to ours, and began to smoke something which was certainly not tobacco. We didn't hang around for long, but we were there long enough to hear our "barra" friend call his son every curse word in the book for wanting to buy a sandwich, "Oh, that's sweet, you think we came to the park to play a little soccer, eat a sandwich, and have an ice-cream... But we're not, you idiot! (he used a different word, but I won't include it here) We're here on business, so get it together." Later on, we would find out that there had been a concert at a nearby stadium, so more than likely the "barras" had arrived early in order to collect parking "fees" and make sure nobody left their car without paying their "dues."
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Argentine Soccer, a tragic paradox. Part 1: A Monumental Tribute.
I'd like to begin by apologizing for the long silence. While I doubt many of you were anxiously awaiting my next post as those of us who read the Harry Potter series before all the books were published awaited each new installment, I hope this post manages to satisfy and perhaps surpass any expectations you did have for my blog.
We'll start with the good side, but first I must provide some background info.
Last week, there was a fire in a warehouse in Buenos Aires which caused the deaths of 9 firefighters. This tragedy led to demonstrations of solidarity and support for the firefighting community mainly in Buenos Aires but also throughout the rest of the country. River Plate decided to do something along those lines to honor the fallen as well as their colleagues who survived. Unbelievably, the director of River's charity department decided to invite Fútbol Femenino to be part of the ceremony.
On Friday, our coach mentioned this plan to us but included very few details. All we knew was we would be walking a lap around the field before Sunday night's game while holding signs in support of the firefighters and encouraging the crowd to applaud the fallen heroes. That was enough to get the team excited. Imagine walking around the field at the Monumental, the largest stadium in Argentina, in front of 60,000 fans, and being announced as a team on the loudspeaker while honoring the victims of a recent tragedy. It all seemed surreal.
The one downside, however, was the time of the game. Kickoff was at 9:30 p.m., which meant that the game wouldn't end until at least 11:30, and managing to find a bus after games is always complicated, something I will elaborate upon later in this blog. I was undecided about going until my 6 foot 5 boyfriend (yes this is a fairly new development and I will discuss it further but in another post) told me he would accompany me and a couple of teammates to the stadium and back home. I'm so thankful he did.
After arriving early to the stadium, we received instructions about our role in the homage to the firefighters. About a half-hour before kick-off, we lined up under the stands by one of the gates to enter the field of play behind River's goal and with fifteen minutes to go before kick-off, we started out onto the track. Each of us was given a small sign with a phrase in support of the firefighters ("Hugs for the firefighters," "Firefighters are heroes," "River solidarity," etc) which we were to hold high above our heads as we walked around the track. Due to the tragic nature of the event, we were instructed to avoid smiling and to remain serious, a task which became more and more difficult as we progressed around the track, urged on by the crowd's applause and cheers. Each section cheered even louder as we passed by, shouting encouragement not only to the firefighters but also to our team. It is extremely difficult to put into words the emotions and adrenaline which pulsed through my veins in that moment. Joy, awe, and excitement mixed with feelings of nervousness and sadness for the lives lost in the fire.
Finally, we made it to the midfield line in between the home and away team benches where a group of firefighters were waiting and where photographers took pictures of us from every angle. Sunday night, the River Plate women's soccer team received more media attention than it had in the entire last year. We reorganized into two equal lines and began to walk onto the field. Oddly enough, instead of looking up and around at the vast sea of fans, I was captivated by the grass. It was impeccable. Perfectly green, slightly damp, and just long enough to make sure the ball could move around at the right pace. I thought of the legends of international soccer who had played on that very surface. Messi. Kun Agüero. Trezeguet. Higuaín. Falcao. Shivers went up my spine and goosebumps covered my skin.
We split along both sides of the center circle, spread out evenly with our signs held as high as possible over our heads, soaking in the atmosphere. It seemed as though time stood still as we waited, unsure of what would happen next. The crowd began to sing and cheer even louder as the Barra Brava made its way into the stadium with drums beating steadily and voices raised in song. Unbelievably, the cheering seems even more intense and louder on the field than in the stands. It's like you are in the center of a massive choir, slightly less holy than your typical church choir, however, and perhaps less musically gifted. A group of firefighters was announced and made an emotional entrance onto the field, filling in the gaps between myself and my teammates. Suddenly, the crowd began to roar as the home team's starting line-up was announced, then boos and hisses began to rain down as the announcer listed the opposing team. At this point, due mostly to tired shoulders, we lowered our signs to waist-height and awaited more instructions.
All of a sudden, players from both teams began to make their way onto the field, my teammates and I exchanged confused glances, unsure of what would happen next. After the teams lined up to shake hands and take the pre-game team pictures, the players from both teams lined up alongside us in the center circle. I was on the away team side and was sandwiched between two players from Gimnasia La Plata while my teammates on the other side were flanked by River Plate's starting 11. Everything seemed unreal. There we were, standing in the middle of the Monumental, the same stadium which hosted Argentina's first World Cup victory in 1978, standing next to some of the best players in the Argentine first division, and listening to the cheers and songs of over 60,000 people dressed in the red and white of River Plate. I tried to imagine what it would be like to play in front of such a crowd every week. Do the players get used to this?
It was truly a beautiful moment, one I'm not sure I'll ever experience again. Tears began to cloud the eyes of few of the firefighters as the crowd began to applaud in honor of those who had lost their lives in the fire. A moment of silence followed then more applause before the teams left the center circle and made their way to their respective sides. Still in shock, we lined up once again and began to walk off the field, looking back toward where the teams were preparing for kick-off to make sure we hadn't been dreaming. (Here's a video of the tribute )
This is what soccer is about, I remember thinking. Coming together and sharing in joys and sorrows, from the celebration of a game-winning goal or a championship to the mourning of a Súper Clásico lost to a bitter rival to the honoring of fallen heroes after a national tragedy, this is fútbol. Soccer is being able to marvel at your team's beautiful passing sequences leading to goals (or great saves by the goalkeeper) or being able to grudgingly admit that the opponent's goal was a stroke of pure genius. Soccer is jumping up and down and hugging a nearby stranger just because he's wearing the same color jersey as you after the final whistle blows to indicate the end of a thrilling match with your team up a goal. Soccer is taking your children to the stadium, teaching them when to cheer and when to jeer, holding them in your arms, pointing out the different players and their positions, and jumping up and down with them while singing your team's songs. Soccer is the breaking down of social barriers and the unification of 60,000 people through a shared passion for the same club. Soccer is "the beautiful game," and I love it.
I wish I could say that Argentine soccer ends here, that going to watch a game is only a positive experience, but unfortunately it's not. Remember that dark side I mentioned earlier? Well, it definitely exists and sometimes even overtakes the good. For now, however, I'll leave you with this bright and happy image of soccer here in Argentina, but this story will be continued as I share about my trip back home from the game in my next post...
All of a sudden, players from both teams began to make their way onto the field, my teammates and I exchanged confused glances, unsure of what would happen next. After the teams lined up to shake hands and take the pre-game team pictures, the players from both teams lined up alongside us in the center circle. I was on the away team side and was sandwiched between two players from Gimnasia La Plata while my teammates on the other side were flanked by River Plate's starting 11. Everything seemed unreal. There we were, standing in the middle of the Monumental, the same stadium which hosted Argentina's first World Cup victory in 1978, standing next to some of the best players in the Argentine first division, and listening to the cheers and songs of over 60,000 people dressed in the red and white of River Plate. I tried to imagine what it would be like to play in front of such a crowd every week. Do the players get used to this?
It was truly a beautiful moment, one I'm not sure I'll ever experience again. Tears began to cloud the eyes of few of the firefighters as the crowd began to applaud in honor of those who had lost their lives in the fire. A moment of silence followed then more applause before the teams left the center circle and made their way to their respective sides. Still in shock, we lined up once again and began to walk off the field, looking back toward where the teams were preparing for kick-off to make sure we hadn't been dreaming. (Here's a video of the tribute )
This is what soccer is about, I remember thinking. Coming together and sharing in joys and sorrows, from the celebration of a game-winning goal or a championship to the mourning of a Súper Clásico lost to a bitter rival to the honoring of fallen heroes after a national tragedy, this is fútbol. Soccer is being able to marvel at your team's beautiful passing sequences leading to goals (or great saves by the goalkeeper) or being able to grudgingly admit that the opponent's goal was a stroke of pure genius. Soccer is jumping up and down and hugging a nearby stranger just because he's wearing the same color jersey as you after the final whistle blows to indicate the end of a thrilling match with your team up a goal. Soccer is taking your children to the stadium, teaching them when to cheer and when to jeer, holding them in your arms, pointing out the different players and their positions, and jumping up and down with them while singing your team's songs. Soccer is the breaking down of social barriers and the unification of 60,000 people through a shared passion for the same club. Soccer is "the beautiful game," and I love it.
I wish I could say that Argentine soccer ends here, that going to watch a game is only a positive experience, but unfortunately it's not. Remember that dark side I mentioned earlier? Well, it definitely exists and sometimes even overtakes the good. For now, however, I'll leave you with this bright and happy image of soccer here in Argentina, but this story will be continued as I share about my trip back home from the game in my next post...
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